ii always love euuii..

heart break into pieces again

2008-12-30T05:35:00.000-08:00

ok.. fine!!!!

now im really angry..

i'm saaaaaddd...
heart break into pieces...
i'm having headache now..
and still crying..
and still tearing till my eyes damn red...

been waiting since the day u went away...

2008-12-13T06:19:00.000-08:00

wth is this??

i am SO freaked out ok...

nvm... relax gal...

im so ANGRY!!!!
ihateu
ihateu
ihateu

I HATE YOU!!!!!

not even a news from u TODAY!!!!
ihateu...

now u noe wad??
i dun think i got a mood to talk to u le lor??
i'm so damn WORRIED can???
and till now?? it's lyk.. 10.23pm @ NIGHT!!
and u yst said todae cming home and now wad??!!

so scared smthg happen to u..
if u think i'm jux TALK...
then u're wrong!!!
jux hoping to see you..
cuz monday im goin off?
and u treat me lyk dis?
wad is this?
(this is for you, u noe hu)

garry...
gudd lor hor?
bully me todae?!?!
i hate u also..
aaa!!!!!
why cant i have a GOOD DECEMBER HOLIDAY?!?!?!

i got another NIGHTMARE!!!!!

2008-12-11T04:48:00.000-08:00

omg... okok...
yesterday i dreamt bout him and her..!!!
aa!! cant believe that i actually dreamt about that?!?!?!

okok.. so it's lyk...
it's @ prom or something??
and he and she actually sing together?? omg.. okok..
he is marcus, she is... u noe hu...

and... it's lyk.. omg!!!!
they both sing my fav song " Can I have This Dance "
and and.. they both hold each other hand so....
lyk so sweet couple lyk that?? so romantic??
okok.. fine i admit.. JEALOUS ok!?!?!
i was lyk so shocked...
(im talking bout what i dream)
and i was lyk talking to patricia and my frends?? and till i saw them so close together and holding hands???
and that i excused myself from the conversation...
and when they finished singing... he lyk keeps looking @ her? which is soo annoying?
and... she keeps looking at him..
and every little thing i do or talk he didnt even care?
he jux ignored me??
and...ok...
till then.., i dunno le.. cuz i was too shocked.. and i woke up in tears???
wow... nice right??
nice that i still rmb the whole story..
ok.. hope it'll NEVER and DONT EVER HAPPEN to me...
omg... it's my another NIGHTMARE OF THE MONTH!!!!
aaa!!!

once again... being broken into pieces...

2008-11-21T19:07:00.000-08:00

DD,

parents quarrelled..
hais....
cried in the car..
no choice... cant hold back my tears...

all i can do is jux zip up my mouth and keep to myself once again...
cnt let it out...
tried soo hard...
but it appears again...
at the same place, at the same time and at the same situation...
i hate it...
maybe it's my destiny to have all these...??
yes...
it's mine... cant change it anymore...
since i was born..
never thought it will be lyk dis...
hais...
once again my heart dead...
cuts~~
slashes on my hands.. wrist i mean..
feel lyk im caught in the middle...
may else well, i kill myself right away...
and the end of my world... my dream. my future...
no more miserable life lyk dis..
it's over...

2008-11-13T00:51:00.000-08:00

tears flowed down my cheek..
again and again...
repeatedly...

cant hold anymore tears...
and jux cried....
yes..
i jux cried again...

so much tears..
that had flowed out of my eyes..
and down to my face...
remembering the sadness and burden that i have inside me...

all i can do is jux to keep quiet...
keep on doin the same thing...
silence to myself..
tears after tears...
sadness after sadness..

been keeping all my secrets inside of me...
no one knows...
except God..

been keep it all deep down to myself...
cant do anything else as i have nothing and no one to share my feelings to..

again..
my sky has been darkened..
and noises from all the thunders...
black and dark and thick clouds around...
rainfalls...
falls thru my sky...

is there anymore HOPE??
for me? for my sky to shine as bright again???
i dun think so...

den i shall jux keep on shed tears in my room alone...
and be alone again...

2008-11-07T06:16:00.000-08:00

Trapped in this life,

one I wish would just end.

Seeing my knife, gripped tight in my hands.

Alone by myself, my thoughts they run wild.

Is this life that I lead, really worthwhile?

What more can I do?

What else can I say?

There's no one listening, to the prayers that I pray.

I take a step back, and look at my life.

But all I can see, is the blade of my knife.

It's my only hope, my means to an end.

The stairway to hell, I will finally descend.

This pain my heart, these thoughts in my mind.

The knife I once held, cuts a fine line.

I failed but I tried, so hard to survive.

But the time for an end, has finally arrived.

my family and me...

2008-11-07T00:33:00.000-08:00

i dunno why..
it feels lyk my world is so.. not mine..
i dun feel lyk blogging...
i dunno wad to say..
though i got alot of things to cry out..
but i jux cant...
it stuck deep down inside me..

i understand how my parents..
they jux...
i dunno...
i really dunno..
i jux feel lyk crying,...
cry the whole day..if i can to..

im useless..

THE NIGHTMARES

2008-10-08T06:07:00.000-07:00

HAIS..

diary...
that NIGHTMARE of mine still in me..
wad can i do? to forget the thing/??
wad can i do??
can anyone help me?
who is that SOMEONE??

diary could u tell me???
im all alone in a room.. waiting ferr the answer to come...
maybe i should jux leave??
without anyone knowing it?
but cant.. hais...

diary...
pls...?? tell me wad am i suppose to do?

CRUSH on SOMEONE

2008-10-08T06:03:00.000-07:00

dear diary,

i met a guy last 2 weeks ago.. i mean 2 guys.. brothers both of 'em..
well.. i kind of like one of them^^
ok is NOT like but ADMIRE oni.. anyways.. he's younger than me by half a year.. hahas..

dun wanna say his name down here^^
but nvm.. anyways..

yea... that PATHETIC vincent come and irritate me again.. i was lyk never seen him ferr 1,2 few weeks?? close to one month?? and he's appeared again.. hais..
wad should i do? wad should i do?

specialy ferr u?? :D

2008-10-05T22:10:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU

and every little thing u do, only makes me love u more..

start here:--->> see below lurhs!

when i first saw you, i was afraid to meet you..
when i first met you, i was afraid to hold you..
when i held you, i was afraid to kiss you..
when i first kissed you, i was afraid to love u..
now that i love you, i was afraid to LOSE you^^

you're the only one that can make me LAUGH when i dont even wanna SMILE..
straight from the heart, you've CHANGED my life forever...

I LOVE YOU TIMES INFENITY PLUS ONE

once upon a time,
something happen to me.. it was the sweetest thing that ever could be so fantasy, a dream come true... it was the day that i met u^^

i hate everyday that passes and i cant see you.. but even after a HORRIBLE day, hearing your voice seems to make everything better.. after a good day, hearing your voice makes it a WONDERFUL day...
that's all.. jux by hearing ur voice " i love u and i miss u" makes my whole world right side up..

LOVE is giving someone the power to break your HEART, but trusting them NOT to..

i'm not supposed to LOVE you..
i'm not supposed to CARE...
i'm not supposed to LIVE my life..
wishing you were THERE...
i'm not supposed to WONDER..
WHERE you are and WHAT you do..
i'm sorry i cant HELP myself...
cuz i'm fall in LOVE with u^^

i love u like... WHOAAA...
i'm falling even more LOVE with u!!!
ever since i met you, nothing seems the same..
and now you got me HEARTS around your NAME^^

i wanna be the girl he gives his hoodie to wear & cuddles up next to when it's cold, he'll be the one who comes up behind me.. wraps his arms around my wrist, catches me off guard & whispers you look beautiful...
i want a boy, who i can run to with tears running down my face & the first thing he do is to hug me^^
a guy who calls me, BEAUTIFUL instead of HOT.. who calls me back when i hang up on him.. wait for the boy who KISSES my forehead.. who wants to show me off the WORLD when i am in sweats.. who holds my HAND, in front of his friends.. who thinks i am just as PRETTY without make up on. who is constantly reminding me of how much he CARES and LOVES being with me..and how he's LUCKIEST guy in the world to have me.. the one who turns to his friends and says " THAT'S HER!"

cried once again....

2008-10-02T00:00:00.000-07:00

dear diary...

something bad happened today..
i dunno who to confess or who to talk to...
there's no one noes me better than u do..
so i'll confide in u..

i received a message when i reached home...
it was from his sis...
it was so heart breaking news...
i didnt do anything.. but jux went there to try out his cook..
is that wrong?? i know that i cant went in there without his parents but....
i dunno how to explain...
why mus dis thing come when i am in a guud mood?
when i am in da examination period?? why mus dis happen to me, diary???
can u tell me why??

why always i am the one who get the hardship?!?! why always i am the one who will always get threathened?!?! why always i am the one who mus go through dis?!?!? why?? why???

sometimes i keep thinking whether i should continue...
but the way he told me... makes me cant leave him...
i wish there is something i can do...

there's a girl...
in da mirror... i wonder hu she is... sometimes i think i noe her.. sometimes i really wish i did.. there's a story in her eyes.. lullabies and gudbyes
when she looking back at me.. i can tell her heart is broken easily..
cuz the girl in my mirror is crying tonite..
there's nothing i can tell her to make her feel alrite.//
da girl in my mirror is crying cuz of u..
i wish something i could do...
if i could, i will tell her not to be afraid...
when she's looking back at me..
there's nth really works that easily..
cuz da girl in my mirror is crying tonite.. there's nothing i can do to make her feel alright..
i wish there was something i could do...

i cant believe it's wad i see..
that the girl in the mirror..
the girl in the mirror..
IS ME...

the girl in da mirror is ME....
is me...
cuz da girl in my mirror is crying tonite.. there's nth i could tell her to make her feel alrite..
and i wish there was something i could do....

i dunno wad to do.. how to do.. when to do...
I REALLY DUNNO WAD SUPPOSE TO DO!!!!! i give up..
maybe i shall jux try to give up on him bahs...
issit the correct and right thing to do??

i jux hope that i could jux quietly leave..
silently without any voice... jux like the wind...
free to flow in the air...
im not the girl that suits him...
da girl that he was dreaming all time..
da girl is not me.......
maybe 10 oct will be my last outing with him bahs??
i cant take it anymore.. but i couldnt bare to leave him jux lyk tat...
why...? why cant i??
i looked back in my past...
with NOW.. is so much different...
SO MUCH.... different...
the PAST TIME IRENE is a CHEERFUL girl..
the PRESENT TIME IRENE, which is lyk... now??, is an EMO girl...

diary.. can u tell me??
can u tell me wad to do? wad to say??
diary u're the oni one hu noe wad am i feeling right now....
yes.. im crying.. i am crying...
i need u.... as much as i need him..
but i need u more cuz u most know me well...
diary... help me out... :'(

THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR...
IS CRYING TONIGHT..
I WISH THERE WAS SOMETHING...
I COULD DO..
I CANT BELIEVE IT'S WHAT I SEE..

THAT THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR..
THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR...
IS ME....

29 September 2008, Monday

2008-09-29T01:44:00.000-07:00

ok..

i've been keeping it since LAST YEAR!! @.@
and now i cant take it anymore..!!! not ANYMORE!!!!
she's damn IRRITATING can... and she's soooo SELFISH....
i dunno how lurhs!!

she dunno anything... den she accused other ppl...
got her own prob she shared it wit me...
i listened to her.. why cant she jux listen to me?!?!! why not!!!
got prob come find me dai ji... wad's da prob?!?!!
i dun understand u noe... hais...

i really dunno wad to do..
why.. how... and so much more questions in my mind....
it's like NOW.. i can jux cry in any second u noe..
hais.. i really dunno... im so freaked out le ok!!
really pathetic lurhss!!!
i hate him!!!!! i dun like tat uncle... i dun like my mom.. i dun lyk myself!!!!!!!
i hate myself!!! i hate me!!!!!!!!!!!

*irene is dead*

heartbroken again...

2008-09-17T01:33:00.001-07:00

jux oni pei him...
hais... my heart break bits and pieces lerhs...
look at him lyk tat.. my heart really ache... so much..

wth is wrong wit yongcai?!!?
why mus he hit him ne?
why mus physically???
why mus he the one get hit??
why mus he be the one???
why???

how i wish i was the one...
how i wish i was being hitten not him...
how i wish it didnt happen.. it never happen..
how i wish it not happen on him but on me...
why mus he be the one?!?

why not others?
why the others never help?
why the others never stop it??
why the others never scold them??
why the others never go and tell teacher?!?!
why?!!?!?!
why.......

remember how we used to be?

2008-09-11T05:05:00.000-07:00

i cant take anymore.. i jux cant take it anymore!!!
ok??!!
i jux cant!!! aaa!!!
i wanna shout i wanna cry i wanna die i wanna bang myself to da WALL!!!
reminds me of WALL-E
aaa!! so cute..

ok.. jux got another scolding not long ago...
well... ok.. i dunno... why... why...
everybody had changed..!! changed!!!! i hate it...
urgh!!! ok larhs.. no mood liao larhs...
tml got 3 tests u noe!!! wth...

another one..

2008-09-11T02:36:00.000-07:00

hais... i jux got scolding from my mom -.-
pei fwend and cheer her up also cant mehs?!!?!!
wad's wrong sia!!!!
i dun understand her attitude and action larhs!

i jux opened da door.. den she nag alr.. pulled my hair some more.. den wan hit my face lyk tat.. hit la.. hit until she shuang lor.. i run out da house den she noe... i really can stand her anymore larhs..
my patient is alr... lyk.. urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really damn angry.. very sad... heart broken.. heart is so damn painful now ok....
very painful....
den she called da uncle.. den talked till lyk tat... talk to her own child wit tat uncle is so very different!!!! im her daughter leis... he's nothing ok... he's nothing!!!!!! he's jux lyk a frend and she treat him so damn well?!!?!
urgh!!!!!! i wanna cry.. cry all nite... i wanna shout!!! i wanna bang da wall.. i wanna go kill myself.. drown myself... dun get up and urggh!!!!!

qi si wo le la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have ENOUGH of ALL HIS NONSENSE

2008-09-10T02:14:00.000-07:00

ok... here i am... damn pathetic wit myself and THAT guy name VINCENT..
ok he's damn pathetic and idiotic ok...

i dun lyk him lerhs..
well i did rejected him last year... but hey.. ppl rejected u doesnt mean u have to go to tat person and ask her why rite?? and scold her and take a revenge on her..
rejecting him is SOO SOOO PERFECT DECISION... cuz finally i noe wad kinda guy he is.. well..

till now he also lyk tat..
my back still hurt cuz of da chain tat he hit to me..
and.. ad worst is tat.. yst i jux met him..
u noe wad he did??
he pushed me to da staircase da railing u noe.. u noe how PAIN it is??
METAL some more.. dun u think dis guy kinda MAD???!!!!!
well... if he sees dis...

u better **** off ok...
i dun wanna see ur face again...
i rejected u so wad?
heart pain?? tearing? wan a revenge?
hey.. u're a guy and im a girl..
guy cant beat girl..
and wad da hell u did to me?
wit all those chains??
all those pushes to da railing and wad so ever stuff..??
wad u had done to me still not enough mah??!!!!
hey dun u think u kinda crazy sometimes??
dun treat any GIRLS lyk ur MAID ok...
their also humans!!! HUMANS LIKE U!!!!
i dun think u're a human.. cuz u act lyk da MOST PATHETIC GUY... which is sooo INHUMAN!!!!
and... i told u so many many many more times before that I HATE U.. I NEVER LIKE U BEFORE... I NEVER WANNA BE UR STEAD.. I DUN LIKE U... I DUN WISH TO LIKE U EITHER... SO WHY NOT U JUX GET LOST FRM MY SIGHT AND GET SOMETHING BETTER TO DO RATHER COME TO MY HOUSE AND DO ALL THESE CRAPS TO ME???????
AND MAYBE U DOESNT NOE HOW HURT IT IS CUZ IT'S NOT BE DONE ON UR BODY IT'S ALL ON ME!!! ON ME!!! NOT U!!!! U GOT TAT?!?!!?
WAD THE HELL WIT ALL THOSE WORDS U TOLD ME????
HUH?!!! U TELL ME???!!!! WELL.. I CAN TELL U NICELY TAT I TREAT U JUX LYK MY OTHER FRENDS!!! OK?!! A FRIEND NOT MORE!! BUT NOW CUZ OF ALL U HAD DONE TO ME!!!!!!!! I GOT NO CHOICE BUT TO TREAT U AS MY ENEMY... TOO SAD TO SAY THAT.. I NO LONGER HAVE THAT KINDA OF POLITENESS IN ME TOWARDS U ONLY... CUZ I DUN WAN TO TALK OR EVEN SEE UR FACE..... GOT TAT???!!!!!
DUN EVEN TRY TO COME AND HESITATE ME ANYMORE CUZ IT WONT WORK!!!!!!

about HER again...

2008-09-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

u noe why im here again ferr dis time round right??
well...

i couldnt forget THAT day..
well. da story goes lyk dis..

i went out wit him...
well.. on our way to home... someone msg him which is HER
den he suddenly shout "SHOOT" i dunno why at first...
den i asked him.. den he said.. SHE was wearing his hoodie...
well...

gue memang rada cemburu...
tapi masa tega amat sich dy...
pake hoodie org lagii..
sakit hati g..
tapi yah mo gmn lagii...
berarti dari tadi doi smsan sama dia dunk??
ga tau dhe... yg penting g dah admit kalo g tuh cemburu..
yah... gmn lagii yah..

bis itu dy tanya doi untk nemenin dy mkn...
yah... itu mahs.. ok lah.. tapi.. ga tau tu napa hati gue tuh rasanya linuuu bangeet.. ampun da..
ya bgt dhe...

so yea.. it's lyk tat..:D

16 August 2008, Saturday

2008-08-16T02:37:00.000-07:00

DD,

todae i went to study wit him^^
well.. u noe why i'm here again rite??

he lost his wallet..
mom jux scold me ferr not taking care of his things..
yes.. i noe it's my fault..
i couldn't een do such a simple job..
to look out ferr his things.. till his wallet lost..
not oni tat.. his stich tat i bought ferr him too..
i dunno how he lost it.. he looked lyk very sad..
cuz of me.. he lost his wallet.. does tat mean if i go out wit him again he will lost his thing again??

sometimes i dunno.. i really dunno..
it's lyk we're not fate to be together??
but wad's da point??
i'm not a gud gf for him i think..
cant even help him in looking out ferr his things..

but he simply didnt blame me..

wad should i do now..??
(hope tat person hu took or steal his things got diarrhea ahs..)

the SADNESS inside me

2008-08-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

day by day...
passed so fast...
that even in a split second
it can disappear into thin air
i've been thinking lately
how far can i go on
how long i can stay
how fast the time will pass

i've been waiting for the day to end
i've been waiting for the time to pass
i've been waiting for re-appearing again
in another world....

i cant be keep on waiting
one day i have to leave
and wad if that day soon appear in front of me??
i jux keep praying that i can stay ferr awhile more...
jux to make sure that he can be by himself when the day come...
but it seems he's not ready yet..
i wish that i can stay by his side everyday..
i wish that i can accompany him everyday..
i wish that i can hug him whenever he needs it..
but it seems that wishes will not come true...
and i noe it..

i still remember how it all started...
da first time i saw him...
he's so cheerful.. he smiled at me and joke wit me..
well liked him in the first place but it seemed he has his own world and he has his partner...
so i jux quietly like him inside of me..
but i didnt see the happiness inside him whenever passed him... but i think he doesnt noe me yet...
so i jux told myself to forgot about him.. but i jux cant..
when 2008 come..
well knocked till da door railing..
he was the one who helped me rub my fore head...
he was late on tat day...
when i was sick.. he showed me so much care..
till one day...
wad i wish for came true..
and i accept his request to be part of his life..
at first not tat close yet..
but as time passed so quickly... we getting closer..
he gave me such a beautiful valentine present...
wrapped wit red box.. how sweet of him:)
he treats me so gud...
wad a waste to those girls who he loved before..
doesnt noe how to appreciate him at all??
next was da 1st anni up to now da 6th anni...
though i noe my time is not long...
but i jux hope for one thing..
i jux hope tat he will be as cheerful as he was last time...
hope tat he'll not change to a bad one... but instead, da gud one..
hope that he'll always remember me.. though i noe sooner or later he will forget..

he did keep his promises to me..
he did his best for me...
thx ferr letting me noe him..
thx ferr letting me meet him..
thx ferr letting me see him..
thx ferr giving me the chance to love him..
thx ferr giving me the chance to be part of his life...
thx ferr giving me the chance to be love by him..
thx ferr giving me the chance to hug and kiss him...
thx ferr make my wish come true...
thx ferr letting him to come into my heart..

just gibb me some more time...
gibb me time to hug him longer..
even though jux ferr a split second..
i dun mind...
i dun wan him to cry becuz of me..
i dun wan him to be sad becus of me..
i wan him to smile.. (not fake one..)

wad i wan him to noe is that..
i will always love him...
even though if we have to separate into 2 different world...

wishing upon a star

2008-07-11T04:49:00.000-07:00

i'm wishing on a star
and trying to believe
tat even though it's far
he will try and find me
i guess tat he forgotten
the promise that we made
i think of him
when moon light shines the night
the best time of the year
when schooling time begin
realising he is there
and smiled at me tat day

smiling to the blue sky
with rainbow cross the clouds
there's so much more
when rains falls on the earth
ran to the nearest park
with hands held by him
such a wonderful moment
to be with him tat day
no one was around at there
so we both sitted down
enjoying the rainy day

when his eyes met my eyes
he smiled and held my hand
i smiled at him and ask
will he be by my side?
all i wan is one voice
jux to say a word..
but wad i get it's jux another lie..

cant he tell something from me
that i've been hiding it
cant he tell tat i cried
since the day had past
since he doesnt want to tell me
wad is in his heart
so jux let me leave him now..
but when i looked at him
that he kneel down and say
i'll promise u that I
wont leave u all alone..
my tears starts flowing
and smiled to him and say
i will love u and i'll be there for u..

i promise u that i will not leave u...

i keep on thinking...

2008-07-09T04:11:00.000-07:00

aduuh..
ga tau knp sih g lama kelamaan isa ampe gini??
g ga mo kehilangan seseorg yg g cinta lagi...
g dah tau rasa kehilangan seseorg yg g cintai itu gmn...
sakit buanget hati g...

apa lagi.. kali ini.. cinta g sama si doi tuh udah ampe 5bln..
5bln pnya cinta... tapi rasanya cinta g ke dia makin lama makin mendalam dhe.. ga tau knp.. g ga pernah ngerasain ampe begini.. dia cinta banget sama g.. ya.. g jg tau itu sich.. tapi... gmn ya?? kok.. semakin cinta g mendalam, semakin takut g?? aaa!!! irene.. ada pa sih ma diri loe??

marcus... dia tuh bae... cinta banget ma loe.. knp sih loe mao ninggalin dia?!?!?!
jangan dunk... aaa!!! g jg tau jangan... aduuh... g ndiri aja bingung... bingung!!!!! marcus.... apa dia?? garry?? aaa!!! ga ga ga!!! g cm cinta satu orang.. dan satu org itu adalah... marcus!!!! g cinta banget sama doi!!!!

tapi yg sedang g pkirin skrg banyak dhe:(
banyak banget pertanyaan di dlm hati g dan otak g.. hais... tolonng!!!!

3 July 2008, Thursday

2008-07-03T04:12:00.000-07:00

hais.. tiap kali ada kesempetan untuk pegi..
slalu dy ga isa pegi... kalo lagi ga ada kesempetan, dy nanya.. g yg ga isa pegi..
haiss.. laen kali kalo mo keluar, g dah ga mo ajak dy lagi dhue.. nyakitin hati g aja... sedih rasanya... kalo cowo loe kagak isa pegi.. pa lagi g peginya sama 1 pasangan lagii.. g jadi yg extra dunk.. pengen ngajak siapa yah?? hais.. masa 3 org doank?? g kagak ada tmn na?? hix.. sdh dhe hati g :'(

apa mgkn bener? g n dy tuh ga jodoh?? hmm.. mgkn kalii ya?? g memang ga jodo ma dy... ke gereja aja susah.. mo ngajak dy tapi ada bokap.. aaa!! ga tau dhue!! pokoknya g bsk mo nntn:D hahahas.. sendiri kek atau berdua kek.. yg penting g isa kluar and happie:D hahas.. ok dhue... g lagii ga ada mood untuk blog.. buais..

Confused..

2008-07-01T03:06:00.000-07:00

g lagi bingung ma si doi...
ada apa dgn dia yah??
aduu..
kalo misalnya gue blg putus, dia mana mao..
bis tu... hais.. dia tuh bisa sedih banget.. g kan ga mo dy sedih...
kok skrg, makin lama makin jauh sih??
mgkn lama kelamaan dia jg bkalan lupa ttg g koq..

jadi..
irene... jgn mikirin dia trs yah??
hais.. tapi g ga isa... g bnr2 ga bisa.. susah bngt untuk g ngelupain dy..
susah bgt untuk g jgn mikirin dy.. tuh susah!!!
g ga mo dia kena ngomel lagi.. tapi.. knp yah??
kayaknya.. sebelum g jdan ma doi, dia bgt kok..
ga bkalan kena omelan dari nyokapnya..

tapi semenjak gue masuk ke dalam hidup dia..
semuanya berubah.. dengat cepat banget..
aduuh.. knp sih musti ampe begini??? rese banget sih!!!
dan jg.. g ga tau gmn bisa ninggalin..
apa g harus pelan2.. diem2 pergi dari kehidupan dia???

i dunno wad happen

2008-06-30T07:40:00.000-07:00

aduh..
gue lagi bingung banget..
ga tau kenapa ma dia yah??

knp dia bisa patah hati ampe begitu sih??
marcus....
loe tu kenapa??
gue sangat kawatir banget..
pas gue baca blog dia..
hati gue langsung lenyap begitu aja..
jantung gue berdebar2 cepet banget ampe sekarang jg..

irene..
loe tuh kenapa sih??
koq bisa ampe begini??

g takut dia knapa2...
aduu... mga2 dia tlp g skrg kek :'(

unforgetable scene in my life :D

2008-05-17T23:08:00.000-07:00

hari sabtu kemaren.. g pergi sama si doi..
whoa.. akhrnya g isa pergi yah ma dia..
pergi nonton bioskop di vivo..
naek mrt.. dia meluk g:)
paling enak dipeluk ma dia.. rasanya...
gimanaa gitu..
nyaman....
enak....
hangat....
yah.. gitu dhue...

sama dia pergi tuh.. rasanyaa..
bedaaa bangeet drpd g pergi sama si tommy..
walaupun g di kasih pergi jalan ma si tommy tapi g ga rasa nyaman ma dia..
tapi.. kalo ma satu ini.. g tuh kagak dikasih pergi.. tapi pas dikasih pergi..
rasanya.. sejuta kali lebih nyamaan bangeet.. beda jauh dhue...

dia nyium g kemaren pas nonton..
baru pertama kali g dicium ma cowo di bibir :D
walaupun sebenarnya ga blh.. tapi..
gimana dunk?? da terlanjur di cium and ciuman..
hahas.. rasanyaa..
gimannaaa gituu dhue yaa :D hehehe..

pertama kali g di cium ma dia di bibir!!
enak sih rasanya.. dicium... tapi.. namanya jg.. baru sekali..
dan jg tiba2.. jadi pas g dicium.. jantung g berdebar2..
hampir nge-stop gitu.. whoaa.. ciuman asli boo..
soalnya.. g kan nonton2 gitu.. pengen tau.. gimana sih rasanya..
dicium ma cowo.. di bibir lagi?!! aahhhh..

baru tau g rasanya sangat romantis buanget!!
tapi.. berarti g dah hilang 1st kiss g dunk ?? :(
tapi.. kehilangan 1st kiss untuk si doi.. gpp kalii yah? haha..
saling mencintai dan suka dan sayang?? hahas..
tapi apa kita bisa slalu bersama slamanya??
itu yang g takutin..

si doi dah pergi ke malaysia.. kok tiba2.. rasanya kosong yah?? pas g di tinggal tommy.. rasanya tuuh.. ga sekosong ini dhe.. aneeh.. ga tau knp g bisa cinta banget ma dia.. apa kita memank FATE untuk jadi sama2?? hmm...

hmm...?? still confused and.....

2008-04-28T01:31:00.000-07:00

aduuh..
g macii bingung bangeet ma neh cowo..
dy tuh sbnrnya.. kayak gimana sich??
ga ngerti dhue ttg kelakuan diee..
hhahas..

biasa.. si doi.. hahas.. tau kan sapa ??
muahahha.. yea.. dy tuhh suka ma nad gak yah??
hmm...???
atau bnr dy cm suka na ma g ajiaaa..??
hais.. skrg lagi ul neh... aduu.. malah mo pindahan rmh..
yea.. lbh bagus sicchh.. drpd tinggal di punggol sini.. sepii abis dhue..
ngeri banget g.. plg ndirian.. g ga mo terjadi kedua kali nya.. hais..
yea.. pindah dhe ke condominium lagi.. ahhas..
akhrnya.. ttercapai jg impian g untk tinggal di kondo lagee.. hooray!! hahas..

yup..g blog disini krn blog ini adlh blog rahasia g.. yea ga diari?? diari ma g kan tmn bae.. yea kan?? hahs.. bisa nyimpenin rahasia2 g di sini.. hahas.. jd ga ada sapa pun yg tau.. ya kan?? hahs..
termasuk marcus ku tersayang.. dy jg kagak tau koq.. jadii yeaahh.. tnang ajee..hahas..

diary, g kangen buangeet neh ma si doi... gimana yah untuk menghilangkan rasa kangeen g ke dy?? haha.. susah pasti kan?? yea.. gmn lagi yah?? cm dy yg g pkrin... koq bisa yah??
ampe skrg.. g masih bingung dhue..!!! hahas...
nih.. g taon lalu aja.. gak pernah ktm ma dy.. ga pernah ngomong malah... eh.. tapii akhr2 nya yea.. ga tau knp.. dy mulai godain g.. gangguin g.. suka pukul kpala g.. ga tau sapa yg nyuruh dy.. atau dy sndr yg mo mukul kpala g.. g ga tau dhue yaa.. hahhas..

dan jg.. hmm.. katanya.. ktanya neh..
lester duluan kan yg mukul kpala g??
biz itu, si han fu.. mgkn.. yea.. bnr.. han fu mukul kpala g..
jadi katanya.. dy jg ikutan.. mukul kpala g.. ya ampuun... mrk tuh ya.. bnr2 dhe..
suka bangeet mukulin kpala g.. g tuh bkn boneka!!! hahas..

trs si doi bilang.. trm kacii ma han fu.. kalo bkn dy, g ma dy kan ga mgkn jadian ape skrg.. ya ga?? haha.. thx ya han fu.. hahas.. anehh dhe.. pas han fu nge dorong tuh pintu.. kan g kejedot dunk?? iyaa... trs..masa.. si doi langsung nunduk ke g trs urutin kpala g seh?? gak make sense kan?? tiba2 si doi muncul.. g ga knal deket ma dy.. malah dy urutin kpala g?? o.O aneh.. trs.. lama2 g ma si doi kan nge-chat di MSN... ngobrol trs2an dhe.. ampe malem2.. hahas.. trs entah knp.. tiba2 dy tuh care bangeet ma g... pas g ga msk skul.. dy tuh care bangeeet gituu dhe.. trs g tnya dy.. knp dy tuh care bangeet ma g.. dy blg.. dy tuh anggap g sbg org yg special buangeet untk dy.. o.O?? trs.. ga tau knp.. tiba2 dy blg dy mo g jadi cewe na.. haha..

g jg ga tau knp bisa suka jg ma dy:P haha.. tiba2 jatuh cinta ma si doi.. hahas.. yup yup.. hahas.. tapi.. apa ini artinya cinta?? hmm... ga tau dhe yah.. haha.. soal na kalo g napa2, dy yg gugup.. kalo dy napa2 g yg gugup.. hmm?? gmn yah? apa ini cinta? atau bukan? iya atau bukan ya?? hmm.. g lagii ul neeh!!! sebel tau ga sich!! hais.. malah kejadian itu membuat g ketakutan ape skrg jg.. walaupun g ga trauma sich.. tapi.. tetep aja.. ga ilang dari pikiran g dan otak g ituu... aduuh,... marcus.. bantuin g dunk.. bantuin g untk melupakan kejadian ini..

dan g skrg lagii mikirin dy, kangeeen bangeet ma mukanya yg lucu itu :P ahhas.. kangen ma dy.. pengen meluk dy.. haha.. lol.. joking.. hhahas.. ok dhe.. g mo blajar.. mo ul bsk neh.. EL paper2, MT paper2.. o.O!! hahas.. bb guys!

dear, i love u!! muacks!

questioning myself..

2008-04-23T06:33:00.000-07:00

DD,

sebenernya.. g itu dianggap apa yah sama dy? hanya temen yg deket? apa tmn biasa? apa cewe na ya?? hais.. g jadi tambah bingung deh..
g slalu tanya ke diri g sendiri.. apa sih yg ada di hati dy?? apa sih yg dy mikirin??

setau g.. nyokapnya tuh kagak suka ma org melayu.. apa nyokapnya pikir g tuh melayu?? eh.. bukan yee..!! g bukan melayu.. g tuh chinese... kays?? kayaknya.. semenjak nyokap dia tau kalo dy jdan ma g.. apa lagi nyokapnya dy pernah ngeliat foto g.. yea ampuun dhe..!! lebih parah kan???

gimana dunnk?? keliatannya.. nyokap na kagak suka dhe ma g.. sejak awal.. g seharusnya dah tau bkal kayak gini.. g ga bkal jdan ma dy.. tapi.. yah.. gmn dunk ya?? g sayang banget ma dy.. g tiba2 cinta ma dy.. dan dy jg.. hais.. diary.. gimana dunk?? g bingung nich.. apa bnr dy sayang bangeet ma g?? cinta ma g?? kalo ternyatanya bukan?? gmn dunk?? apalagi.. nyokapnya keliatannya galak lagi..

g ga mao krn gara2 g.. hubungan ibu dan anak.. jadi putus.. g ga mo itu terjadi ma dy.. g ga mao.. g lebih memilih untuk kehilangan dy daripada dy kehilangan ibunya ndiri.. g lbh rela bgt.. krn g pkr... lama kelamaan jg.. pasti dy berubah pikiran.. g bnr2 ga tau harus gimana supaya.... hais... bingung.. bener2 bingung...

ga tau knp g ga bisa kehilangan dy... baru pertama kali g tuh sayang seorg cowo ampe kyk gini.. ahhas.. okok.. dah.. dah tau kan?!! hahas..

MY HEART JUX BROKE INTO TWO PIECES...

2008-04-10T08:31:00.000-07:00

G GA TAU KENAPA...

G GA TAU GIMANA...

GA GA TAU CARANYA UNTUK KASIH TAU..

HATI G DAH PECAH..

HATI G SANGAT SANGAT SANGAT SAKIT...

HATI G RASANYA DAH PENGEN MATI...

PAS G NGELIAT NYOKAP DI CIUM MA OM2 YANG GENDUT!!

BEGO BANGET SIH?!! KASIH SEMBARANGAN CIUM2...
PANTESAN AJA LAMA!! DAH KEDENGERAN SUARANYA..
G DAH KEDENGERAN BUNYI GELANG NYOKAP G..
MALAHAN TIBA2 GA ADA SUARA.. G PKR BLM DATENG..
G KE PINTU NGELIAT..

EH!!!! TUH OM NYIUM NYOKAP G?!!!
BAJINGAN!! G HARUS NGOMONG MA NYOKAP HARI INI..!!
G GA MAO TAU.. G HARUS TANYA MA DY..
MO BERANTEM KEK.. MO GMN KEK..
G MASA BODO!!!!!
G HARI INI MEMANG DAH GA BISA TAHAN LAGII!!!
KELAKUANNYA TAMBAH LAMA TAMBAH NGAWUR!!!
G HARUS LIATIN NIH KAYAKNYA..

KALO GAK.. LAMA KELAMAAN.. BERUBAH AMPE GIMANA GITU..
LIAT AJA LOE YAH NANTI...
BAE2 MA G?? TERNYATA APA?!!!!
LOE TUH CIUM NYOKAP G!!!
UNTUK G DIKASIH IZIN UNTUK NGELIAT LOE BER2..
LOE AWAS AJA LOE YA!! MAEN2 NYENTUH2!!! BELUM LIAT LOE G KALO MARAH KAYAK APA?!! MAMPUS DHE!!

G SKRG DAH BNR2 MARAH!! MARAH!! G DAH PENGEN MELEDAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUSPICIOUS? JEALOUS? I DUNNO..

2008-04-10T02:52:00.000-07:00

LOL..

HAIS..

MIX LARHS..

U NOE WAD I NOE KAYS??

YEA.. RIGHT..

I FEEL LYK CRYING..

I FEEL LYK TEARING NOW..

I FEEL LYK KILLING MYSELF..

I FEEL LYK DYING..

KAYS.. I ALSO DUNNO WHY..

it seems lyk she like him.. den he also kinda near her...

den both near2 each other.. later2.. also become an item..

u see alrhs... u understand??

hais...

diary.. gimana dunk??

kayaknya tambah lama mrk tambah deket dhe..
hais.. bingung g harus gmn..
ngeliat mrk happy bangeet..
tapi... kok rasanya kayak g kehilangan sesuatu yah??
diary... gimana dunk?? g bingung neh...

bener ga seh yg dia ngomong itu??
kalo dia tuh sayang ma g..
cinta ma g..
care ma g??
smuanya bener ga sich??
apa itu hanya bohong??
kata2 yg ga blh dipercayai??

abis g mao gmn dunk??
lupain dy?
tinggalin dy?
jgn ngomong ma dy??

g ga bisa.. g ga bisa ngeliat dan berbuat bgt..
soal na kalo g bgt.. dy bisa sedih..
dan g jg ga mo ngeliat dy sdh..
apalgi g skrg dah cewe na...
hais.. g rasanya pengen sendirian..

tapi.. susah banget...
g ga mo ngomong.. tapi dia slalu yg muncul di dpn mata..
di hati g.. di mata g..di dpn g.. di otak g..
smuanya tuh dy.. ga tau knp.. kali ini.. cinta sangat susah yah??
rasanya.. gimanaa gituu..
g ga tau knp g bisa jatuh hati ma dy..
bisa2 g cinta bangeet ma dy..
knp ya??

aneh.. pdhl.. kita sbnrnya ga bgt deket.. tapi kok??
kita bs jdan yah?? cm gara2 g jato kejeduk pintu..
dy urutin kpala g.. yg sakit??
trs.. dari situ g ngomong.. chatting ma dy..
tiba2 dy blg dy suka ma g..pengen g jd cewe na..
g seh dah suka ma dy sejak taon lalu..
cm krn dy dah ad yg punya.. g menjauh deh..
tp.. heran yah?? koq.. g bisa dapetin dy lagii??

aa............!!!

2008-03-15T07:21:00.000-07:00

g dah ga tahan lagi.. g dah kangeen bangeet ma dy.. aduuuh...
tapi hari senin dah ngeliat dia lagii.. aduuu... gmn ya?? hais.. ampuun dhe...
g bnr2 kangen bangeet ma marcus.. apalg tadi pagi bryan blg mgkn seminggu dy ga akan dtg.. hah??!! bener aja??!! g dah kangen berat ma dy.. tp.. knp yah tiap kali kalo keliatan dy g jd deg2an?? aduuh.. haeh.. ga tau dhe.. skrg hati g sangat kacau..

1. g kgn ma dy
2. g sangat sayang ma dy.. tp dy syg ga yah ma g??
3. g tiba2 cinta ma dia.. cinta bangeet ma dy.. tp.. g ga tau apa dy bnr2 cinta ma g..?

haeh.. hati g sangat bingung.. mood g swing mulu.. haeh.. pengen banget di peluk ma dy.. rasanya nyamaaan gitu.. hais.. ga tau dhe.. ah.. stop sini.. bye

crying day

2008-03-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

todae such sad day..
dar2 uncle passed away..
i cried for tt..
reminds me of my grandpa..
cried for being treated lyk tt..
but now i understand wad happen lerhs...

but still tears flowing dwn my face..
cant stop it..

1st anniversary...

2008-03-01T23:22:00.000-08:00

yo!! so long didnt blog lerhs..

kays.. so dis cming tue is da anniversary..
i mean 1st month.. hahas.. kays.. i dunno wad to gib him.. hmm??
wad ah?? i wanna buy elmo for him.. but dunno expensive mahs??
hais... surprise him bahs.. i jux need to think more.. yea.. kays.. gtg.. bb

something seems to be quite wrong..

2008-02-24T02:51:00.000-08:00

i dunno wad happen..
i really confused.. i dunno.. i'm damn pathetic..
idiot.. nvm..

i dunno wad happen to him..
saw him online.. den i online lor.. den he straight away off??
wad the hell..!! it really hurts me a lot.. (if he noe tt..)
hais.. dunno larhs.. maybe gerald right..

maybe i too trust him bahs..
maybe he not really love me lor..
im jux being fooled by him..
tt's wad i think right now..
i dunno..
i really am confused..
i miss him.. duhh.. i love him.. yea..
but..
does he fell da same too?? it was lyk..
argh!!
i dunno..

feel lyk crying..
but i cant cry.. cuz ltr my parents will ask me why..
i dunno tml im goin hm wit him or not.. im not quite sure..
tml i have to ask him.. wad happen.. why he off straight away when he saw me online..
i have to ASK him PERSONALLY..

I HAVE TO ASK!!

weird.. being watched by ppl..

2008-02-16T22:20:00.000-08:00

okay.. todae i cried man!!

cuz it's like my mom noes tat i got one already..
which yea.. i hav one.. but.. i really confused.. should i straigh away tell him and say tat i wanna break wif him?? although it's kinda hard to do it.. cuz.. i dunno.. i never felt so deeply bout dis guy.. which.. hais.. i dunno.. i really confused.. tml start school again..

i dunno wad will happen tml..
cuz i think i will jus keep quiet and jux shut my mouth up.. i hope i will not talk to anyone especially HIM.. i have to.. i will try to keep quiet.. hais.. I REALLY DUNNOO!!!!

ok larhs.. although kinda sad.. to say but..he hope tat i n him will at least till graduate..??
will it be tat loong?? by tat time i think my momo knows it liao larhs.. hais.. somemore.. our anniversary is around the corner.. which is very fast!! and i also think cant go out.. haiyoo.. dunno.. see bahs.. hahas..

OMG!!! cant be...

2008-02-11T04:58:00.001-08:00

shoot!!!

walllaauu...

danial, bryan and some of the ex-co knows it lerhs.. :'(
how?how? does sara noes it?? OMG!! how..??
but at least they dunno is _ _ _ _ _ _ .
oni bryan and danial and kwee min and patricia and zakiah and my BFF larhs.. hahas..
kays.. but.. hack care larh hor?? chee yew got 1 also dun care.. haha..
but.. i scared larhs.. haha..

and it seems that.. tat gurl still likes him or love him.. i dunno.. it's true!! my jie2 use the card and see... and is real lor... OMG!!! shoot.. she's online now.. hais... damn it ah..!!
how?how?how?
hack care larh hor?? but i dunno how leis..

should i leave him? or should i not leave him?
does he really loves me tat much?
does he still loves her more than me?
does she still loves him tat much?
must i sacrifice for tat?
should i just leave without a word?
does he know tat she still loves him?
does he know that i feel really sad to know it as well?
does he really needs me tat much?
does he really miss me tat much?
does he really know me so well? i dun think so..

why? again it appear to me??
dis problem the same again?
why cant this last?
why he chose me not her?
why he likes me not her?
why he loves me not her?
why he need me than her?
why he miss me than her?
why?
why?why??

lots of probs.. :(

2008-02-03T23:00:00.000-08:00

i have lots of problems.. hais... sianx...

i quarrel wif my dad todae jux about a small thing.. he shouted at me.. early morning u noe!!
i cried for a while.. why must there be quarrel?? i hate to quarrel wif someone.. i really hate it!!

den next.. most of the councillors said that i like daniel.. i dun even like him lor.. he's jux like suranthi they all.. my close frends... tat's all.. den they thought the childish thing!! i dun like to being treated like them..

third... my ex.. wanna patch back with me.. but he actually likes my cousin.. why must he patch back wif me? although i rejected him already.. but he kept saying he miss me and all those things!!! i wanna forget bout him.. but why can't i?? how to forget him?? tell me!!!

4th.. marcus ask me to stead wif him.. i ask for suggestion.. some of them say dun stead... some of them said stead lar.. but.. i like him.. but.. i also dunno.. his first love is my enemy.. sara png..!! i told him lots of times bout it.. but he said that he cannot not talk to me de... i noe he likes me.. but will it last forever? wad im scared bout is tat...if one day we break up.. i also will be hurt.. but i really love him... n like him.. but i dunno... tat HER.. keep appearing in front of me.. i think that she still like marcus.. she cant forget him.. and he also cant forget bout her cuz she's his first love..

5th.. my mom wont allow me to have a BF>.<
which is till now im still a single.. oni ppl likes me or admire me.. if she noes it.. im goin to die!!!

6th.. so many hmwks!! especially DnT lor.. do things damn fast de lor.... which sometimes i dun even understand.. pathetic!!!

7th... i miss my grandpa... i really miss him soo much.. why must he leave this earth??
i cant even see him for the last time... for a second also i cant anymore.. the most hurtful day in my life... why must be the guud one leave first? i really really miss him soo much.. the last day i saw him was on 2004 June.. for the last time... for me to talk to him... to laugh with him.. i pushed his wheelchair.. help him lots of things.. he love me the most.. he soo guud to me.. the last day for me to see his face.. and no more.. i left with my grandma which also love me the most.. i dunno wad am i goin to be.. since my grandpa passed away.. im not as cheerful like the past... i jux can't... if i hear any news saying hu passed away becuz of wad.. im sure.. im the one hu will cry first...

8th,... my mom always say meifen, my frend, is guud.. everything she's gud.. im not guud meh?!!!! why must always SHE'S THE ONE??!!!! im her only DAUGHTER!!! why must say HER in front of me???!! why??!!say this.. wrong.. i say that also wrong.. all she say one correct larhs??!!
she likes to lie here n there and yet still trust her soo much more than me?? bias!!

9th... pathetic handphone!!! everytime memory full!!! i change my memory card liao.. to 1G..!!!
den its the phone memory full.. i check n check n check.. i moved all the stuff to my memory card liao.. still like that!!! idiooott!!!!

10th... hais... dun wan liao larhs.. i dun wanna talk bout it anymore.. sianx.. makes me more n more head pain!!!

I have a crush on someone...

2008-02-02T20:21:00.001-08:00

Kays.. here is my first secret..

i have a crush on someone.. his name is marcus.. then, yea..
he also likes me.. yesterday he told me tat he wanna stead with me.. so.. i dunno wad am i goin to do.. shall i stead with him or not??

i haven't got any idea about it.. yea.. hahas...maybe.. tml im goin ask my frend bah... give me suggestion.. hahas.. they sure wad one lor.. hahas... actually i also like him larhs... but.. mm.. dunno.. too shy to clarify.. hahas.. maybe.. :D

but.. i got tat feeling long time ago.. since i first met.. hahas.. yea.. he looks funny when he looked blurr.. i can laugh.. and he's kinda naughty sometimes.. maybe.. i not quite sure bout him.. but he really care a lot bout me.. yea.. and my frend.. also his frend.. cynthia.. told me tat he actually a nice guy.. so she said that.. try to stead also nvm.. he's gud... i dunno lots gudd comments bout him.. hahas.. yea.. i think tat's all bah..

my new SERETS' BLOG...

2008-02-02T17:53:00.000-08:00

FIRSTLY, I WANNA SAY THX TO ALL THE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO LOVES ME AND CARE FOR ME.. ESPECIALLY MY MOM.. AND MY DADDY.. YEA... AND ALL OF MY FRENDS.. AND COUSINS..

THX MOM, FOR DELIVERY ME INTO THIS WONDERFUL EARTH.. THAT I HAVE SO MANY LOVES GIVEN BY LOTS OF PEOPLE.. YOU'RE THE BEST MOM I EVER HAVE.. WITHOUT U I'LL NOT BE IN THIS WORLD.. TO GET ALL THOSE THINGS THAT I HAVE NOW IN MY LIFE.. WITHOUT U GUIDING ME, I DUNNO HOW WILL I BE IN THE FUTURE.. I REALLY CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU..

THX DAD, FOR GIVING ALL THE LOVE TO ME.. AND WORK SO HARD TO FEED ME AND SEE ME GROW UP TILL NOW.. WITHOUT U I DUNNO HOW AM I RIGHT NOW.. U'RE THE BEST DADDY I EVER HAVE.. ALTHOUGH SOMETIMES U MAD AT ME BECUZ OF MY BEHAVIOUR.. SO SORRY FOR ALL THAT THINGS THAT I HAD DONE TO YOU..

THX MY VERY BEST COUSINS, WHO ARE THE ONE GIVING ME SUPPORT AND LOVE TOO.. WITHOUT U GUYS, I DUN HAVE ANY FUN AT ALL.. ALTHOUGH YEA.. I'M STUDYING IN HERE BUT ALL OF U ARE THERE BUT WE STLL CONTACT EACH OTHER ALL THE TIME.. ESPECIALLY IVANA. MY MOST BEST COUSIN OF ALL.. THE ONE HU ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGH, SHARE THE SADNESS TOGETHER AND JOKES.. U'RE THE BEST.. ALTHOUGH U OLDER THAN ME BY 10 MONTHS.. BUT.. NO WORRIES.. HAHAS.. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE ALL OF U GUYS THERE.. NO MATTER WAD HAPPEN..

THX MY BEST FRENDS, THE ONE IN JAKARTA.. THX A LOT.. FOR THE FUN THAT WE HAVE TOGETHER SINCE PRIMARY SCHOOL.. THAT WAS LOONG TIME AGOO BUT I STILL REMEMBER HOW WE LAUGH, ALL THE FUN THAT WE HAD TOGETHER.. ALTHOUGH WE'RE NOT TOGETHER NOW.. BUT OUR HEARTS STILL THERE.. ALWAYS REMEMBER U GUYS ALL THE TIME.. SO SORRY FOR OT LEETING U GUYS KNOE THAT I MOVED TO SINGAPORE.. BECUZ THAT TIME IT WAS ALREADY HOLIDAYS GOIN TO PRI 5.. SO I SUDDENLY HAD TO MOVE THERE.. SO SORRY U GUYS..

FOR MY BEST FRENDS, IN SINGAPORE.. CHERLY.. THX A LOT.. FOR THE PRESENTS AND ALL THOSE STUFF U GAVE ME AND THE LAUGHTER WE SHARED... IT WAS VERY FUN.. ALTHOUGH WE'RE NOT THE SAME SCHOOL NOW IN SECONDARY.. BUT AT LAST WE MET... BOTH OF US WERE SICK.. SUCH CO-INCIDENCE.. HAHAS.. I DIDNT KNOW THAT WE'LL MEET.. THX A LOT.. U'RE THE BEST FREND!!!
FOR NADIAH, SURANTHI, PATRICIA AND ALL THE REST OF MY BEST FRENDS.. SO SORRY IF I DIDNT TYPE OUT U GUYS' NAMES CUZ IM IN A RUSH NOW.. OKAY.. I HAVE SO MUCH FUN WIF U GUYS!!! ALTHOUGH WE'RE NOT IN THE SAME CLASS.. BUT U GUYS ARE THE BEST..!!! SURANTHI.. THX.. FOR THE SHIRT U BOUGHT FOR ME IN SRI-LANKA.. AND NADIAH FOR THE HANDPHONE CHAIN.. HAHAS.. U'RE THE LAUGHTER OF ALL.. ALTHOUGH U LIKE TO SHOUT.. BUT IT IS VERY FUN TO BE WITH U.. SO SORRY.. IF WE CAN'T HAVE RECESS TOGETHER.. BECUZ OF MY COUNCILLOR'S DUTY.. SO SORRY.. AND THE TIMING IS NOT THAT GUUD.. THAT ALL OF US HAVE DIFFERENT TIME THAT WE CAN'T GO HOME TOGETHER.. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.. YEA.. SO MUCH..

THX FOR MY FRENDS, HU ARE NOT THAT CLOSE.. BUT U GUYS HAD HELPED ME A LOT.. IN LOTS OF STUFFS SUCH AS PROJECTS AND ALL THAT.. YEA.. SO.. NICE TO BE WITH U GUYS TOO..

THX FOR MY DAR2.. WHICH I DUN HAVE YET.. IF HAVE.. THEN.. I WANNA THX HIM FOR GIVE THE LOVE TO ME.. FOR TAKING CARE OF ME ALL THIS TIME.. HAHAS.. I ALSO LOVE U... BUT I DUNNO WAD ELSE TO SAY.. I REALLY HAVE A GREAT TIME WIF U.. I HAD LOTS OF FUN CHATTING WIF U.. AND TALKING TO U AND ALL THAT.. REALLY THX A LOT.. LOVE U!!

AND LASTLY...

FOR MY EX... THX YA.. KRN LOE DAH BUAT BNYK MACEM BARANG2.. HAHAS... LOE DAH SETIA BANGEET MA GUE.. AMPE SKRG PUN LOE MSH SAYANG MA G.. G JG MASIH SAYANG MA LOE.. TAPI.. GAK SEBNYK YG SPERTI DULU.. SORRY.. TAPI G GA AKAN LUPA TTG MASA LALU KITA.. WALAUPUN KITA DAH PUTUS.. TAPI G TAU.. LOE YG PALING SETIA MA G.. G TAU ITU.. MAKANYA G GA BISA LUPAIN LOE SEGITU GAMPANG.. SORYY YAH KALO KADANG2 G SK BUAT LOE BINGUNG DAN KESEL.. TAPI G GA ADA PILIHAN LAEN.. SELAIN MUTUSIN LOE.. TAPI.. YG PENTING SMUA ITU DAH MASA LALU.. WALAUPUN G DAH COBA BETAPA BERAT NYA UNTUK NGELUPAIN ITU SMUA TAPI TTEP AJA GA BISA ILANG DARI OTAK G..

OK.. I THINK THESE FIRST BAHS.. AT NIGHT I WILL BLOG AGAIN..